im living at my parents. 30 yo. no job. no grades. add,autsim, bipolar. no future. my psychologist told me im a failure, a loser. shes not wrong, but coming from a professional it hurt more. i have no friends. panic attacks every night. what do i do?? death is near me, but my anxiety hasn’t got the upper hand just yet. im deeply addicted to my medicine, without it i woundn’t be alive. but it worked so well, ive forgotten to train my mind to deal with the symptoms ive have if i miss my dosage. i was born with anxiety so my mind is prewired to respond to normal life with depression,anxiety and stress. smelling, hearing,seeing or feeling anything that i am not exposed to in my “normal”-life, can/will give intense anxiety. my mind is always armed to exploit any positive situation, it never stops seeking vulnerabilities and blowing up my chances of progression.